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More Than Just Depression?

04/01/2011

Question:

I am a 17 year old female and my entire life I`ve suspected there`s something wrong with me. As a kid I suffered from horrible panic attacks nightly where I believed “ghosts” were in my room. My heart would feel like it was going to explode. Those thankfully lessened as I got older but I still have a lot of trouble sleeping. I am often restless and always exhausted. Sometimes I`ll convince myself of things that are ridiculous like mind reading, ghosts or even me having supernatural powers. Now I can look back and think how stupid that is but when it happens it feels so real. I find it so incredibly hard to be around people, I`ve never been close to anyone including my parents. I have a lot of trouble concentrating especially when writing because my mind has trouble focusing. When I was a kid I was very hyperactive and very aggressive. My parents were told I should be tested for ADHD but I never ended up being tested. When I was 13-14 this changed. I`m still agressive but now I have next to no energy and I very rarely leave the house. I used to cut myself and often think of suicide but not in a serious way. I have a terrible temper. I find myself screaming over trivial things. I have a little patience. I am physically repulsive. Most of the time when I`m thinking about suicide it`s because of my appearance. I have difficulty retaining information. only within the past year have I been able to go two days without crying. Sometimes I`ll “break” I`ll scream to myself and cry and do weird things like paint on myself or cut myself or take pills. And like with believing in weird things, I can look back when it`s not happening and see how weird it is but when it`s happening it kind of consumes me. People in my class believe that I think people hate me more than they do. Is there something wrong with me?

Anyways sorry for the long rambling question, I hope some of it made sense. Thanks

 

 

 

Answer:

Thank you for visiting NetWellness.  I think you likely have some significant mental concerns and that you need to see a mental health professional for a complete evaluation!  I can’t diagnose depression, anxiety or another serious mental illness over the internet, but I strongly encourage you to seek help soon.

Thoughts of suicide are often a sign of extreme distress but something that can be treated. I would strongly encourage you to do one or more of the following as soon as possible:

1. Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 (website: http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/help/default.aspx), which is free, confidential and staffed by trained counselors who are available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.

2. Call or go to your local hospital emergency room.

3. If you are in treatment, call your mental health professional.

Take good care.

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